i was visiting toronto and wanted to stay. i could do it if i studied again and i wanted to stay in sheldon’s building but i couldn’t. i was taking the train around but it was scary and dark, went no where. michelle was there briefly helping me with the train. one of the religious colleges let me stay for a couple nights (a receptionist/nun was originally very encouraging) in a room by myself. they eventually found me to be heretical/bad and kicked me out. i was ten years older than everyone else and didn’t fit in. i could have stayed with aunt jenny but i was avoiding it. my dad was in town but unhelpful. a boy at the school started making fun of me for being heretical.
This dream seems to be highlighting a sense of instability and uncertainty in your life. The desire to stay in Toronto may represent a desire to take on a new challenge or change your current circumstances. However, it seems that there are obstacles preventing you from achieving this goal, such as the fear and darkness of the train ride and being kicked out of the religious college. The feeling of being ten years older than everyone else and not fitting in suggests a sense of isolation and not belonging. You may feel like people are judging you or not accepting you for who you are. The presence of your dad may symbolize a need for guidance or support from a parental figure, but his unhelpfulness emphasizes a feeling of being alone and having to navigate difficult situations on your own. Ultimately, this dream may be urging you to confront and address the obstacles and challenges that are preventing you from achieving your goals and feeling a sense of belonging and fulfillment.